you've got to to this whether you like it or not old man. so quit being such a whiny little bitch and start getting your shit together. you're not helping anyone with your mopey sad sorrow filled bullshit. this is the way it's got to be, it won't be any better. so pick your head up and do something for yourself. you've been here before, in this exact same fucking spot, so don't give me any shit about being defeated, you're not even a quarter of the way through the extraction process and you already want to give up your stripes. wear them proud and hard, don't be such a stupid prick. you can do this. and you will do it. be better than that.