Clorox

i
knew
what
was
going to happen
before you
damn your eyes
i knew
you
better
than
you knew
yourself
so i am not surprised
don't explain
anything
you don't
need to
i knew.
i get it.
so let us
pass
like strangers
in the hall
indifferent
to each
other
i have
to see you
so i will
be calm
kind
considerate
but i will save face.
i don't think
you really know
what the term
"friendship" means
you throw it around
like a rubber band ball
hoping
it'll bounce back
and you can
catch it
in your palm
and hold it.
you'll never learn
so why
waste
my breath
or
these words?
lets just find
a way
to be okay
with each other
and move
in our
opposing directions
shall we?
i have.
now you.

The Brick of Truth

ok
here goes
girls:
you don't know what to feel
so you pretend you're in a movie
the star of the show
and you play scenes out
according to how the director would request
girls:
you cannot be on your own
you cannot live alone
you need constant assurance
that you are beautiful
lovely
sexually attractive
and "intense"
girls:
you don't know passion
because your passion
comes from a shallow place
and people let you get away
with almost everything
because you have
what men want
girls:
you are boring
and annoying
and a walking hypocritical mass
"i want to be single"
sure you do hun
wait until someone discards you
and you'll run back to what works
because girls:
you don't ever have to develop as people
as a personality
because you are nothing but a hole
that needs to be filled
and nobody
here
ever
had the balls
to say it
to you
but what have i got to lose?
i know the system
and you're all the same
the formula
to life.

a Worthy Adversary

hey,
you,
yeah,
you with sandals and a robe
GOD!
i've never bothered you with my prayers
it'll be a waste of your time
you haven't given me many bad points
i lost a car to a hydrant
i've lost many a woman
to what?
not sure.
maybe too much truth???
or not enough bullshit?
i know you see me sucking on this bottle
i'll meet you one day
and we'll take a long stroll
do they have whiskey in heaven?
i sure hope so.
hey,
you,
yeah you,
GOD!
you've given me some good breaks
i think maybe you waved a wash of "Luck" over me
because i should of been dead a long time ago
like that time i crashed into a van
with no seat belt on
and my head hit the windshield
but somehow i didn't go through
maybe physics?
i try not to think about it.
i've been dealt a good hand.
these girls
seem so insignificant
compared to my other accomplishments
i almost detach myself
from all of you
the worth of a man is not how much he needs to be happy
but how little
give me some paper
and a pen
and my insides will warm through
enough to bleed into
your cold hearts
girls
you no longer surprise me
you're all easy
i see right through you
this year
will be
something
worth
writing about

a Good Friend

a good friend
like a brother
brother,
you sit with me when times are rough
we ride together
across the asphalt
towards patience
and anger
my brother
you make choices
worth deciding
choices
that aren't second thoughts
but a twist of the phone
my brother
when i'm gone for two days
you call to make sure
the world hasn't opened up
and sucked me into it's core
a good friend
a rarity
you know what the term friendship means
a term girls
and hallow people
throw around
my brother

Everything Burns

Just for tonight
i rather not write
i rather sit here and drink
and tomorrow
i'll wake up
and everything will be the same
just as i left it
because
people
and objects
do not change
he who left you behind yesterday
will leave you behind ten years from now
i enjoy this way too much
i see moves
before moves are made
it's no wonder
i get bored
and stare at my shoelaces
wondering if god exist
watching me suck on this rum
everything burns
the nights flame with fire
and the glow through my window
cast shadows on my dying plants
and the wicker grows sorry with every plaque
every trophy
that paces across this room
i've detached myself
from everything not worth losing
and attached myself
to the good things that withstand
the test
the time
the decay
of life
i'm okay
but you
i don't think so