the Most Beautiful Turd

you can't go back
and have
what you had
you'd be a fool
to think that
i do it too sometimes
and you can't
make everything alright
because nothing is suppose to be alright
if it was
then we'd have nothing to fight for
nothing to complain about
i do it too sometimes
think everything is alright
many people don't like me
that's fine
i don't like many people
so i get it
eventually
i'll grow out of this
like we all grow out of everything
and i'll be fat
old
married
balder
with many many children
running around my house
barefoot
causing mayhem
making me want to rip my face off
but they'll do things
and i'll look at them
and say,
"hot damn, this is the good life."
smile
and drink my orange juice like a good boy
my wife will love me
because i don't say much
all the fight got sucked out of me
i'll sell lots of books
and people will call me a sell out
a cheater
a hypocrite
they'll come over to my house and drink
good scotch
and play chess with the old dead beat
and i'll look back
at my twenties
and say
"boy was i rotten"
or maybe i'll never sell a book in my life
and continue working the word
until i collapse
onto my desk
with a pen clutched in my hand
alone
dead
cold
because everyone thought i was bad
negative
damaged
malfunctioning
i got news for you
we're all bad
damaged
and malfunctioning
some more than others
i said it before
and i'll say it again
none of you owe me anything
don't be nice because you have to
do it because you want to
and if you can't stand to be around me
then go away
and let me do this
alone
i can let people in
but don't expect to come in
and dance
on my heart
and then walk out
the same way you came in
it's true
i do point out the negatives in life
i say,
"oh look! a turd! a beautiful turd!"
so that whoever is with me
if they're with me
won't step on it
like i did
or others before you did
as well
hate me
allow me
to let you down
because you don't really care
anyway.
this life
is
too
positive
sometimes
that
the ugly
is left
alone
unattended
to grow
and copulate
without notice
please
don't step
on that turd
you would of missed it
the beautiful turd