If You Can be Anything.

a struggle
to be
great
and full of life.
everyday
is just another excuse
to put a bullet in your head.
but you don't
you hope
that something great,
pure
and full of definition
will come to you.
you're living a dream man,
it's a dream.
play the game and be that guy.
you know the guy.
you feel sparks
that should define you.
but those are hollow
because they've never gotten you anywhere.
if you were a jerk
a jock
a douche bag
you'd score so much.
this is why i drink
because i can never be one of those
bad guys.
i repress him as far as possible
and retreat into myself.
i can never be emotionally invested
in anyone
because so far
a quarter of the way through
you've all done bad shit
that caused major damage
but i can't show it.
you have destroyed the good
so only the evil
sayers
shine through
in this decapitated soul.
it's all of your faults
for being
doing
and
executing.
you don't know any better though.
this is the way it is.
so those good guys
don't score
shit.
they sleep
in shit
every night
and it doesn't matter to you.
because the douche bag
is next
to
you.