Panda the Dog

There is no answer
to anything
it's all very vague
arbitrary
that's the point though
we've been granted with different brains
people pass through life
some stay
some go
aye
that's the nature of the beast right?
right.
you lose an arm
but you keep going
you lose face
but you keep going
i'll never end my life
i wouldn't give you all that satisfaction
of knowing that life beat me
because...
shit...
it ain't that bad
sometimes i'm feeling down
sometimes high
but that's the nature of the beast.
right?
right.
i look at myself
single at 24
drinking beer
watching movies
eating cold pizza (thank you brother)
on a sunday night
but hey
that's cool
someone will throw me a bone
soon
and if they don't
then what the fuck?
i keep going
it's all about endurance
i can't run a mile without stopping for a smoke
and i can't go a day, without a beer
surging through my system
but this is now
ten years from this spot
i won't write the same things
it'll be a different spot
with different people
and different lives
interweaving
it'll all be different
get it?
sure.
this is documentation
to look back
and see where i was
what i did
and how i did it
i
so many i's
i this
i that
i am here
you are there
i hate that too.
i'm sure you see it
i see it
but for me
this whole thing
isn't about attention
or acknowledgement
it's about keeping a track record
being able to look at it
and say,
"oh shit, i see it."
so don't indulge me
don't validate me
just let me
be
my
imperfect
aye!