Bookmarks: Revised

you are
a place keeper
to keep the big book
in tow
dragging behind her
pages torn out
highlighted
revised
dog eared
and tattered
you are
the bookmark
she keeps
to not let her feel alone
isolated
because
if she had thoughts
about how she ends up
it would make her sad
i love this
it's funny
how one person can beg for your friendship
but not really know the true meaning of the word
how someone can do something "nice" for you
but only want things in return
i told you
"you don't owe me anything"
your actions are so hallow
you make me sick to my stomach
but i'm overacting right?
being too rigid?
you are
a bookmark
to keep her nudging along
and she'll never know
any
kind
of feeling
even
when you kick
the sick puppy to the curb
because another one
will come right along
and say
"oh look, a sick puppy"
different fleas
on the same
goddamn dog
i know it!
i knew it all along!
and i thought better of you
but you're all the same!
oh
it's
sad
that i have to accommodate this
it's either
i find a way to fall in line
or i blow my brains out
breath man
breath
please
breath
nothings ever going to change
so please
for the love of it
quit being
so goddamn melodramatic
yes.