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soon,
your dad will get the family together
and head out to the farm
haggle over the price of a christmas tree
with artificial snow covering
strap it to the top of his SUV
and support our dying
lives
he'll hang lights all over his house
and drain the energy that we are running low on already
celebrating a fictitious characters birthday
in an excuse to drink egg nog until his gills explode
and once he has used up this beautiful life
he'll dump it on the sidewalk
and not call anybody
leave it there to rot
in the dry hot sun which is Los Angeles
money wasted
precious materials wasted
energy wasted
in order to "celebrate good times"
don't get me wrong
i'm not a pessimist
but how can a person who says they are environmental
do such a thing?
does your brain not operate at a non-selfish reasoning?
probably not.
soon,
people will carve turkeys who were raised on top of one another
shitting all over each other
and sit around a table
talking about, "friends, true friends, deep family ties.. blah blah blah"
mom throws evil glares at dad
dad doesn't acknowledge any kind of hate
and smiles deep down into his plate
good man.
nice man.
kind man.
with strong hands.
soon,
people will disguise their disguises with other disguises to celebrate halloween
dress up in an excuse to "go nuts"
"act Crazy"
"be wild"
"drink like a motherfucker"
and
now,
i know what the reader is thinking
i must be the most self hating human being
but i'm not
i enjoy this to the fullest
this life
is as bad as you make it
your sickness
is as bad as you believe it is
and your mind
and voices
talk as much as you let them
but somebody needs to say it
someone needs to tell you
enjoy the holidays, the family, the heart
but know,
just know,
that it was all built on bricks made of dust
and it's all fake
but enjoy it
find a balance in everything
or else you'll go nuts, and wear shoe boxes on your feet
dress in funny hats
in mismatched clothes
and be the town drunk
i hate to be mean
to sound hateful
to be pessimistic
but someone needs to say it
if not you?
than why not me?