Please Speak In Stereo

we must understand
that there are people who float into our lives
and it may not be the appropriate time
for us
but to shun them, to throw a cold shoulder
does us no harm
no good
no nothing
we remain the same
we must understand
that everything around us dies
everything
the animals, the humans
the objects we own don't mean shit
our lives don't mean shit
our well being means shit
this is all shit
produced in a giant warehouse
for us to feel better about ourselves
to distract us from each other and our faults
pills, booze, love
this will all end
and we don't live forever
and we sure as fuck don't love
we don't
admit it
not whole heatedly at least
we pretend to care
share small things
morsels from the feast
bones piled upon plates
toenail clippings on our floor
and dead mice in traps
but
when these moments come
and
when these people come
and especially
when these immaculate times come
we as people must harness them
and still keep in mind our tiresome mission
but remain true to our inner beings
if a girl is kind enough to kiss me
i'll kiss her back
but it won't end there
for as much as i enjoy sex
the intimacy is worth more in gold
the shining of her hair
all of it
beautiful beings around us

with every rising of the sun
with every opportunity
i will take it
appreciate it
do right by it and her
if i leave
it's not because i don't care
not because i'm an asshole
because that i'm not
that i know
this world
full of douche bags
full of men who only use
move on
use more
move on
use and use and devour like pigs
men who can never be men
but only lambs at the slaughter
but
if i leave
it's because you took to long to grasp the moment
and it passed
it's hard to recreate those things
they are not planned
not holy
not anything
merely ticks on the clock
we could very well die now
as i write this
i could choke
suffocate
and die
my last thoughts would be not what i wanted to do
but embracing those i did
and hoping the ones i didn't
get hit
hard
in the face
in the mouth
with the brick of truth
so
so
so
don't think too much
don't read too much into those scenarios
take them, see them,
don't expect them
if it's good
more will come
and i know they will
my time isn't up yet
neither is yours
so play it hard
and close to your vest
it's all we got